Spark

Any given day can be so many different things to us. So many different experiences, so similar to previous days, and yet producing such different reactions and responses. In fact, the same thing happening too routinely creates a progression of emotions and reactions to the same stimuli. Initially a thing can capture your interest and hold you with the promise of new possibilities. You love it because it's something "new everyday." Truthfully, and you haven't figured this out yet, it is actually just new in contrast to what once was. As days go by and you face and handle the "different challenges" whatever it may be throws at you, a routine begins to develop. A peculiar sameness starts to develop out of what once was new and fresh. Every scenario starts to fit the pattern. Then, one day, could be months, maybe years, maybe decades from inception...the invigorating stimuli is gone and the sameness is overwhelming.

Everyone's been through that cycle. More'n likely several times. I'm only a little more than a third of the way through my life and I couldn't possibly count all the times I've been through this exact cycle. Jobs, relationships, hobbies, school, etc. Pretty much anything that can go on in a life can begin to...stagnate. Growth slows to a crawl and will stop eventually if some attempt at revitalization doesn't occur. It's not as easy as watering the soil, or getting a new book, or a new job. Good steps, but they're only steps. So much more needs to be done. Much more of a commitment than a shift in your physical world.

How many times have you thought to yourself, "I need to make a change?" Desire alone isn't enough. There has to be a commitment to the desire. I still haven't determined exactly what this means. Mostly because I'm having a hard time with it myself. There are a lot of things I want to do, but I've never been able to really commit myself to any of them.

Maybe all that's been missing is the build up. Put enough pressure to anything and something will give......eventually.